In two days, I begin anew in a senior management role, though firmly outside the startup ecosystem. I’m thrilled to have a clean slate and happy to be so employable after such a colossal fuck up. Though, the learnings were indeed real and have made me a better man.
The past month has been a torrent of emotions, a series of lows, each lower than the last as I retreated into a shell, neglected my health and came to terms with our only chance at a strategic acquihire ending with a shitty skype chat where we were told we just weren’t good enough to work with the successful valley startup in our space. It was a blow to the work we did over the last two years as well as to those who had invested in us as people, whether financially or emotionally.
We have been threatened with legal action due to our gradual shut down, we had a support organization breach contract and tell us, “just give up, do you really want to fight this”, and have been up close and personal with the true filthy face of the world that on the outside celebrates failure but in reality treats those that are suffering through failure inhumanely, because they can.
It’s over. But you’ll never know. The service continues to run, but communication is slowing down. It’ll continue to slow down gradually, until you get annoyed and lose interest. Churning away to the next big thing to hit tech crunch. Which hopefully, will have a fate better than ours.
I’m not going to reveal my identity, because it does you all a great disservice. Let these words and these memories resonate (or not) not because of who I am but because of who we are. At some point in your life, entrepreneur or not, you will fail and do so spectacularly.
You’re not alone. It’s going to hurt more than anything you’ve ever felt before. It will try to destroy you.
But it won’t.
Thank you, everyone. For your words of support, your introduction, and spirit of perseverance. I am forever grateful that your voices helped me through this awful experience.